I want to blog about this but it’s still too recent for me to process so this is me attempting to process the unprocessable on the blog.

My Clarkesworld story, “Everything Must Go,” will be reprinted in Prime Books’ anthology The Year’s Best Dark Fantasy and Horror.

Here is the TOC:

Laird Barron, “Hand of Glory” (The Book of Cthulhu 2)
Peter S. Beagle, “Great-Grandmother in the Cellar” (Under My Hat)
Peter Bell, “Glamour of Madness” (The Ghosts & Scholars Book of Shadows)
Joseph Bruchac, “Down in the Valley” (Postscripts #28/29: Exotic Gothic 4)
Jim Butcher, “Bigfoot on Campus” (Hex Appeal)
Mike Carey, “Iphigenia In Aulis” (An Apple for the Creature)
Terry Dowling, “Nightside Eye” (Cemetery Dance #66)
K. M. Ferebee, “The Bird Country” (Shimmer #15)
Jeffrey Ford, “The Natural History of Autumn” (F&SF, July/August 2012)
Neil Gaiman, “The Man Who Forgot Ray Bradbury” (The Shadow Show)
Theodora Goss, “England Under the White Witch” (Clarkesworld, Issue 73)
Maria Dahvana Headley, “Game” (Subterranean, Fall 2012)
Robert Hood, “Escena de un Asesinato” (Postscripts #28/29: Exotic Gothic 4)
Stephen Graham Jones, “Welcome to the Reptile House” (Strange Aeons #9)
Caitlín R Kiernan, “Fake Plastic Trees: (After)
Ellen Klages, “The Education of a Witch” (Under My Hat)
Marc Laidlaw, “Forget You” (Lightspeed, June 2012)
Joe R. Lansdale. “The Tall Grass” (Dark Tales of Lost Civilizations)
John Langan, Renfrew’s Course (Lightspeed, April 2012)
Helen Marshall, “No Ghosts In London” (Hair Side, Flesh Side)
Tim Lebbon, “Slaughterhouse Blues” (Nothing As It Seems)
Alison Littlewood, “The Eyes of Water (The Eyes of Water)
Good Hunting, Ken Liu (Strange Horizons, October 2012)
Sarah Monette, “Blue Lace Agate” (Lightspeed, January 2012)
Ekaterina Sedia, “End of White” (Shotguns v Cthulhu)
Priya Sharma, “Pearls” (Bourbon Penn 04)
Robert Shearman, “Bedtime Stories for Yasmin” (Shadows & Tall Trees 4)
John Shirley, “When Death Wakes Me to Myself” (Black Wings II)
Cory Skerry, “Sinking Among Lilies” (Beneath Ceaseless Skies, Issue #92)
Simon Stranzas, “Go Home Again” (Fungi)
Rachel Swirsky, “The Sea of Trees” (The Future Is Japanese)
Melanie Tem, “Dahlias” (Black Wings II)
Karen Tidbeck, “Arvid Pekon” (Jagganath: Stories)
Genevieve Valentine, “Armless Maidens of the American West” (Apex, August 7, 2012)
Brooke Wonders, “Everything Must Go” (Clarkesworld, Issue 74)

I used Kiernan’s Drowning Girl in my PhD school preliminary exams.  I’ve read I’m pretty sure every word Goss has ever written except her dissertation which I should probably request through Interlibrary loan.  I was too afraid to ask Peter Beagle for a signature at Worldcon because, Peter Beagle.  All my recent reading obsessions (Swirsky, Valentine, Headley, Tidbeck, Tem) are on here.  I have a story in the same book as Neil Gaiman.  Neil-mother-effing-Gaiman.


Deep breaths, I am taking them now.  Why did smelling salts go out of style?  This is the moment for smelling salts.  Can we bring them back?  And then maybe bring them over to my house.  In bulk.  I am in need of intensive revivification.

Do not know what to do with this information.  Have drink?  Have multiple drinks?  No, too early (even if appropriate).  Have espresso drink?  No, bad idea, will jitter with happy.  Clean house?  House is already clean.  Read a book?  WITH WHAT FOCUS YOU MUST BE JOKING sorry just kidding okay, not read a book (although if you are in need of a book, I recommend Karen Russell’s Vampires in the Lemon Grove read back to back with Saunders’ 10th of December because taken together they will wreck you.  If I could read right now, which I can’t, that’s what I would be reading).  Hug James?  James at work.  Will hug James later, as soon as he is home from work.  Then we will read Saunders and/or Russell out loud to each other while having a celebratory glass of wine.  But not for several hours.  Too many hours…

Write new story?  Yes.  That’s what I’ll do.  I will write a tiny story, and it will be the happiest story on earth.  It might even have a happy ending.

Yeah, that’s a reasonable facsimile of what my brain sounds like on a heavy hit of dopamine.  And now I will go take my own advice and write things.  Ecstatically.


In which I nerd out over speculative fiction over on Have You Nerd, which is a great Internet space dedicated to women writing about nerdy stuff.

I watched the whole recent fracas about Fake Geek Girls explode the Internet and felt even less inclined to blog about anything more controversial than kittens.  In such a world, I very much appreciate having a safe space to love what I love and damn the torpedoes.  Thanks for having me, Terra!

I am in awe.

This is amazing and coalesces all of my mixed feelings about the post below.  I like the idea of a crowd-sourced, pay-it-forward means of discovering authors I might not have heard of otherwise.  And I sincerely love the writers I linked to, and was linked to by — I’m still negotiating how to effectively toggle between “wannabee author myself” and “terribly sincere fan.”  But for blogging authors, TNBT is also blatant self-promotion, and self-promotion always feels a bit painful and awkward in its cringing desperation (at least it does to me…I feel like a dog asked to tap-dance).  Incisive, gently critical whimsy is the best of all possible responses.  Thank you for this, Helena.